The Woman I Need to Be
While the tears dripped down my cheek
I stood there in silence I could not speak
Realizing the man who had my heart and soul
Could be so cold
I cannot think of how the times have changed
From when I was his love and saving grace
Nothing could separate us from our embrace
Until he kicked down the barrier
Spoke the words that I ultimately should have known.
He watched my soul break into pieces
While i cried until I had no tears left to shed
As he brought another woman into our bed
So I cry
I cry for the children I will never know. For the love I will no longer taste
For the man who has made me feel shame and disgrace.
I cry until the tears are dry.
Until I realize that tears help for a moment but the ultimate hope is
Bringing back the woman I used to be
A woman who was independent and free
Not one torn down by the man of her supposed dreams
One step at a time
One moment in time
I begin to write instead of cry
I feed my heart soul and mind
Learn to let go..
And become the woman I not only need to be but the woman I want to be for eternity.
~Anastasia~